The essential thing I feel is that permanent inner sense of restlessness, which will never disappear or go away, but must find a new fixation. I will always know sadness and loss, and stumbling through nonsense. I will invariably make hard choices, where I must trust my unconditional gut instinct always. What I do upon others will come back to haunt me, as it did when I mustered the courage to face Enclave Emily, AnkGrooger over my past misdeed of giving and withdrawing money, and to know what it's like to be the direct recipient of their permanent hate, which I was able to just finally repeatedly push their boundaries by screenshotting them here in public, and entering/exiting their Discord repeatedly, driving them insane and up the wall, until receiving a takedown request threat, and being blocked me from the server. (A block is like a feeling of death. Villain vanquished. I also will leave Discord behind permanently.)

One of the things I've always longed for is for another hero (singularity) to be there for me, to bolster my emotions up to super happy (my emotional state is essentially my battery meter, where I'll need to rest at home to recharge), or to find other people who will stand out among the norm, and who I'll interact with and will inevitably have to move on, and not get addicted to what is an ultimately ill-fated relationship, no matter how good or how sweet the moments are.

There are several singularities (reality-warping superheroes who will stand for something) out there who I have met and bumped into and known, for example:

• - Christine Weston Chandler (Chris Chan), who is actually incredibly kind-hearted, earnest and imaginative and who the cynical denizens of the internet would smear as naive, utterly foolish and clown. (It doesn't matter the labels they will project onto you, the energy will be unremittingly negative.)
• - YandereDev, who had been the recipient of a malignant narcissist smear attack from both callimara and AllySunne, and who the rest of the internet repeated ad nauseum until Yandere Simulator became a verboten game to ever stream or play, and videos of its gameplay taken down automatically with the channel permanently flagged.
• - Maddox, who you'll know for "The Best Page in the Universe" and who I've taken a few pointers from going from all his articles, has fallen victim to malignant narcissist Dax Herrera, had his reputation smeared to where he wasn't growing views with his recent new posts. I was tempted to offer him insight and emotional support directly over this matter, and he was very generous in sharing with me all those movie recommendations. With my outburst of sheer pent-up sadness which I've held back for so long, I'm able to free all of life and humanity from that soul-sucking downward spiral loop.
• - Shaclone, who plays Shaco matches to this day, telling those in-bred retards he has played with up to now to eat shit, and has an IQ of 135-140.
• - Terry A. Davis, who programmed TempleOS, and revealed how geniuses admire simplicity, and idiots admire complexity.
• - Nassim Nicolas Taleb, who has written the Incerto books which provide a framework for real-world risk taking, and who I have existentially insulted by claiming to be his mother who time-travelled from the future, and boasted about myself saying how he has never written a moving book like I did, which is like an apple boasting about being more of an apple than that orange.
• - DarkSydePhil, who has started the idea of recording gameplay with his commentary/reactions, and who you'd remember the infamous public fapping incident of 2016.

It will be a long list if I did list them all off the top of my head. But a Singularity is the person you think of first when it comes to anything. Anna Ralphs as erotica model, Yana Moskaluk as an illustrator, Tom Cruise and Will Smith as action stars.

It won't be useful anymore to hold caution or be wary of evil spirits (I vanquished them, hopefully, and the hell which they will enjoy is the game mode "Scary Dairy: Hunter vs. Hunted" where my Fortnite character Queen Dairy is the maligned, misunderstood witch who enacts revenge upon the poor villagers trying to take her down), which you can dispel simply by having the courage to hold the camera up to them, and capture their shame-inducing words directly for the public to witness.

All I know is that the journey is just beginning. My journey, along with everyone else's. There are always new beginnings, and ends of an ever upward-expanding cycle, where the fruits of risk-taking must be left behind forever for everyone else to enjoy.

I don't know what tomorrow or even the next minute or next five minutes will look like. I'm genuinely scared of all the dizzying possibilities and faux-pas which lay undiscovered before me. Do I do the dishes? Apply for a job at Dairy Queen? Add new chapters to my unfinished stories or surprise people with an insane idea? Or something else? Probably, the wisest move is to take care of basic business first: organizing my room, ensuring that my computer will survive unexpected shocks - because I have freed myself from that fear of scarcity, and the sadness which I've held back so long my life to now.

One more thing before I end this. A singularity who became infamously known for World War 2, was Adolf Hitler. He is an incredibly hated, yet memed and admired man, who only wanted all the best for Germany after their catastrophic loss and humiliation from the first World War. Like me, he kept pushing boundaries. There were no brakes and he was often on a cocktail of drugs by Dr. Morrell to manage his agitation/enthusiasm.

However, Hitler ended up bringing Germany to ruin when he made the decision to push Easterward into Russia, and Westward into the UK and France. It would have been more tactically wise to properly delegate tasks to his men, trust them to communicate smoothly, but he had no choice but to obey the spirit in him, and when total ruin came upon him, he and his wife Eva Braun took their lives which freed Germany to face the sheer devastation he'd left behind.

If you push your luck upon success, as I've done so many times when the spirit in me had skyrocketed, you will face total catastrophe and ruin, and people will be irreversibly upset how you've crossed a line (which always happens when singularties just do their thing but neglect that vital piece of wisdom). I can write this advice now, but remembering to apply it is a different story altogether. There is no such thing as being friends again (real friends help radiate a warmth which keeps you grounded, and while other people who are not spiritual will end up draining you): they were never a real friend to begin with.

When my spiritual energy surges too high, I end up writing sentences which will look like "I ahve so mcuh energy I can type and jump and." I shouldn't need any external medication or therapist, period. I have exterminated the hold Black Hole NPCs have in keeping people in fear of living, over issues relating with scarcity.