The mind and soul, unlike what Eckhart Tolle says, do not have to be so spiritually opposed with each other. People are innately (morally) revulsed when you tap into your soul to try and break a pattern which has been set in stone - an established pattern which is like a buoy in the vast ocean to cling onto, lest the vast tides sweep you away and drown you.

But there are always heroes everywhere. In history, Napoleon, Jeanne d'Arc, Jesus of Nazereth. There are some who are warped, and who countless documentaries pore over the life and making of such-and-such monster.

I am among one of those heroes. When it comes to the heroic journey, unlike stories where everyone lives happily ever after because otherwise the page count would rival that of the Neverending Story, there is never really an end. Only new beginnings, new adventures and challenges.

My own actions must resemble those of a madman to the immediate observer, and for the longest time, I thought I only had 4.5k subscribers on YouTube and a limited following no matter how what it is I try, because I was a hopelessly boring person. Not so. It's because I polarize people. A great many who aren't awakened yet will immediately dislike me, and those who aren't willing to awaken to their own spirituality will be among my enemies. The few who know, will always be my friends.

There's a line from The Prestige which really resonated with me (the whole movie did). "Man's reach exceeds his grasp."

Robert Angier, who was masterfully played by Hugh Jackman, spent his life in obsession over deciphering the "Man who teleports between doors" trick by Robert Borden, because he lost his love, who drowned in a botched drowning orchestrated by Borden. Eventually, in all his frustration, he comes across Tesla, who grants him real magic - the power to duplicate himself and anything.

By this point, Angier has out-mastered Borden. A hundred shows where he "teleports" (really cloned himself) to the balcony and astonishing the entire audience. And to rub things in, he frames Borden's assistant for his own drowning death (by failing to show up when he knows the assistant will nose around backstage to the blind stagehands).

Though it is tragic how Angier reveals himself to be the aristocratic Lord Caldlow who jealously possesses Borden's daughter on a legal technicality, when Borden is in prison awaiting death by hanging - "See, it is now I who will make you suffer what you've put me through my whole life, when you took love away from me."

The greatness of Robert Angier is in his desire to astonish the audience, even if for a moment, that the walls of reality, imprisoning, which everyone takes for granted could be walked through - it will leave them all with hope and wonder. Those feelings which I took for granted growing up in the 1990s and early 2000s, and which have never left me to this day in an era of great and terrible uncertainty.

I have alienated a great deal of people across my life's journey and I won't deny that. Some will even lovingly wish that I did fall down the stairs and paralyzed myself, or have my life end by some fateful means (i.e. a person killing me, or me taking my own life because I'm depressed and I regret it all, or my own "stupidity").

For as long as I live, I will deny them that pleasure. I'm not here to save or rescue anyone like Superman. Only to show people as a living example that awaiting on the other side of Hell is the ultimate wisdom. That man's reach exceeds even his imagination.