According to Timothy Leary, a human being has up to 24 different brain circuits, with the first 12 corresponding with material-bound reality. The higher circuits delve into consciousness growing aware of the body, the mental thought processes, down to the DNA-Life-Gaia arena and finally the quantum-soul level, with higher states corresponding with a much smaller locus of self-identification. Ultimately, a person may evolve to become what he calls a "Singularity" - where a person is able to fully self-actualize beyond petty fear into an identification with an indestructible uniqueness, a total and unconditional self-love. Like in the 1999 movie "The Matrix," where Neo has always been the One, it's like this with me. If you're curious, look up the book "The Game of Life" by Timothy Leary and Robert Anton Wilson. The PDF should be available to find online for free.

During my previous manic episodes, induced by personal contact and attempting to discern human predator influence, I noticed how other people would suddenly gravitate towards me as I found it hard to just fall asleep with a feeling of internal excitement. I suppose this is like how with Twin Flames, where once you spiritually awaken and undergo ego death, your "Twin Flame" partner would suddenly want to be all over you. It brings to mind an episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, in Season 2 where Xander casts the love spell to have Cordelia fall in love with him, except the spell backfires and gets every woman heads-over-heels to be with him.

As well, I noticed how my mere presence alone is enough to influence not just people within my immediate physical proximity, but also over online interactions, such as multiplayer matches and social media like X/Twitter (I'm sure it's not just confirmation bias with the algorithm tailored to what I see/do). And it's not just people in my lobby or my teammates, it is EVERYONE inside the match. The influence of quantum probabiltiies (chance) into realms of the bizarre. Last year in 2025, my influence made transgender, narcissistic streamer and cheater rileycs play New Sobek City on Battlefield 6 over and over, which I have a clip of.

I've always wondered why my own awareness (consciousness) exists inside my particular body at this point in space-time, and over the years I've struggled looking for answers, and I ended up with the realization that my mere awareness and presence itself is exerting an influence over all of reality itself, which goes beyond currently-known science. It was hard for me to articulate this, and ended up in the psych ward several times as I'd face that primal, existential fear of possessing what is essentially "Godhood." Like this is too good to even be true.

Oui, I know all of this sounds crazy and hard to believe. But let me show you this example of two Warzone matches where my mere consciousness has imparted itself upon everyone playing. Nothing will appear out of the ordinary at first glance: I don't have magic powers of reading people's minds or having any "aimbot" due to psychic abilities - doesn't work like that, I can still fumble shots and lose matches because I'm only an ordinary person like you. But pay attention to how my matches here plays out, and how every other player is oddly more energized compared with the kinds of matches you'd usually have. "These matches are much more sweatier than usual!" my teammate remarked.

If there's anything I'd ever want you to know: nothing good ever dies, and that everything you do, say and articulate (essentially all information which others will receive) has mammoth impact on everything else. Even if say, you're alone in the most remote part of the world, if you're mourning the loss of your loved ones at the cemetary (they're never gone), or if you're just having fun when nobody else is around. You don't need to be religious or turn to Jesus Christ or whatever. (Also, and Eckhart Tolle says this: the idea of time is just an illusion: there is no such thing as the past or pre-determined future. Only the present exists, and your mere presence alone, without you needing to do anything at all, has much greater impact over how everything plays out.)

Now, where do I want to go?